Russian Roulette

It’s hard to be the last to be loved

Always first to give and never to receive.

Putting everyone and their hearts above

All just for them to leave.

It’s hard to carry the weight.

Broken and meaningless

But you let them through the gate

Feelings to repeal, But it’s too late

It’s hard to feel free

 I love you…Damage,restrict, and belittle

But forever is no more

The pain will always be

It’s hard to be okay

Struggling with each reply

Finding yourself in circles, looking for a why

Is there a way?

It’s hard to be the first to lose 

Russian roulette

Losing all control, Fumbling the truth,

Whose heart is there left to choose.

It’s hard to be you 

No pain should last this long

With you,there is Nothing Wrong

Above all ... you will forever be strong.

-Charesejay Speaks